Afflitus - Wasted On A Memory lyrics

I'm not like you and I'll never be It's just so far beyond you where I am today A weak beaten man is all I see Along with your insults that cut into me Blood wont determine my destiny Or fear a life filled with regret I'm so much more than you could ever be And from me nothing is what you'll get I'll say I learned my lessons Without your company And your son, is what I'll never be So what are you hiding with your lying? My life, wasted on a memory With self doubting and self hating Along with love you'd never send Keep your back turned Watched your bridges burn We were never family I should have known by the time bruises faded You'd be home again Slaughter my innocence And watch your ego defend A lifetime of silence and a mind set for violence I see redemption coming my way Bled my last vein and words can't make up for A childhood thrown away Neglect and abuse sculpted my world So let's go back to the start And you show me what was really in your heart