Caught in my body . My feet drag me . Wherever I do not want to go . I have no choice . I am split in two . Body and mind . My mind is clear . Wants to find another host not deformed , yet not perfect . Raise war , raise hell , mind wins . Body cries , mind flies , body dies . I swim in agony . Gone is my golden era . I collapse in lurid dreams . The stream of distress has taken me into its arms . A collage of memories flashes before my eyes . Sometimes grotesque , sometimes destructive . I long for an reunification . Some time near in time . An embrace of filthy claws starts me out of my sleep . But there is no reality , reality is gone . So am I . There is no more me . The body dissolved in an ethereal ma** . The minds roams in an unending universe . I am lost in my dreams and there is no way back . I think I die . But I am not certain . What is dying . The change from known into unknown . The change from unknown into known . There is no colours . Nothing! Only fading into solitude