Advocates - Substance Affliction lyrics

I just don't know, where do I go from here Dead ends, dead friends, what's left for me? Nothing can bring me back from this f**ing disease I'm f**ed up, blind again Its how I feel, its how I deal with internal conflicts in my head One day I will destroy myself, been feeling like I'm somebody else I'm trapped in the clutches of my past mistakes What do I have to do to catch a f**ing break Distant, oh so distant I should have let you in Constant, oh so constant this pain just pull the pin! I've been wasting my life away I am a victim to the poison in my veins All my days are spent jaded and I am Losing hope that I'll find a way out Through the darkness I search for a light, to illuminate the path up ahead I can feel my heartbeat rising, every second makes me feel that I am nothing Pushing my face to the ground I've been beaten and bruised, used and abused. The way I see i've got nothing left to lose Thoughts creeping at the back of my mind I've gone to far and now I'm running out of time Break these f**ing walls that are confining me, the room is spinning please god don't let this define me! Will this ever end Put a gun to my f**ing head, and set me free oh let me start again