Achromatik - When I Was Up lyrics

[Hook:] When I was up, you would never come around. (Only around when there's something to see, you always taking something from me.) But when I needed a friend, you could never be found. (You ain't never did nothing for me, from now on you're a nothing to me.) Verse One: Damn, I think God is tryna give me signs for the love I'm doubting I'm usually the one who sees sh** clearly but girl my mind was clouded No longer listen when you speak Your voice is silenced cause everything said I no longer believe I submitted to my heart, omitted my mind from the start I under thought it, usually I overthink it apart Now cards are faced up, the stakes up but pay stubs Can't afford to cover this risk to flip the cards to get a “straight up” Answer from you. To pay that fee, I refuse I could never sell my soul to any b**h that misused Another man for ego, love ain't no f**ing casino We don't ever gamble our emotion's just to go home with zero And no, I refuse to hear your side to the story It's just a lie, that you hide, in your mind and tired of storing So when you ask me what's wrong, you better listen to this You ain't a fading memory, you don't exist b**h [Hook] Verse Two: See loneliness is all I know and that's the way it's gotta be Cause this game is cutthroat you're fighting battles constantly Despite what they tell you, sometimes you need to get away Everybody has a place and mine's in Howell by a lake A place where you can chill and drink, think in peace You can spill your deepest secrets and never care, cause judgment cease Speak, cause there's nothing at stake Until I fell for some girl that was my biggest mistake We live and we learn, until burns are replaced We strive for perfection till flaws are embraced We want the first place, but never the race We push for the taste but hate when we chase But to me the chase is half the fun Not meant to walk, we learn to run. We learn to speak through broken tongues Cause only through our downfalls, we learn how to rise And then when it comes to our dreams, we should never compromise See our foundations should be built by the frustrations we're dealt We need to learn to walk on coals before we march the depths of hell. And still [Hook] Verse Three: I feel like people are confusing my consistence with resistance The fact that you demand an explanation proves I don't give a f** about your existence Shut your mouth and listen; you've become a hollow shell of your former self, so distant The dude I truly knew would never be like that The dude I truly knew would beat your current self's a** In the past, we would talk about the “house made of gla**” Now you're standing alone in it with a rock in your hand Gla** shattered, stones scattered, lies just plaster the floor You're afraid to step on gla**, but still attempt to reach the door Tryna make a mends, but the sh** you say is dense You just wanna clear your conscious based on selfish false pretense It's common sense. You don't give a f** about me You just wanna clear your mind and make it easy to sleep So I'm sorry my brother, I won't give no satisfaction It's time we grew up and now we pay for all our actions; cause [Hook]