[Verse 1] Doesn't rain when it shines searching for simpler times tryna fit my rhyme but its all about time independent on my own i bet i conquer the throne friends in the past will talk about home but it will never phase from simpler days i just got a raise and thats just okay 12.50 and hour all sweet and sour at the end i hope to be on top of the tower finished genocide thinking i was cool then i f**ed around got kicked outta school gotta disability and its a lot to take in no friends to bond with thats a lot to take in anger built inside and im just on the rise can't wait til im 30 still handing out curly fries its pot and im kettle how would you feel if you were treated special [Hook] Heart filled with these broken lies will i ever be the same can you let me know you have changed can you push me out into the rain can you let me know you are okay would you care if i said im insane would you help me relieve this pain would you help a young boy in the rain would you tell me you are okay [Verse 2] Everyday is living hell no chance to survive living a lie is that Considered crime pen ran out and there's no more to share this is my life and i dont have a spare people used to hate now they say they were out of place they talk when your high and leave when your low without the support im sure id let go give me 1 year and i promise i will blow all day I die and all day I cry heart filled with all these broken lies no time to write a story im just writing my goodbye 3 tapes strong this is another way to try and i hope that god can accept the fact that im writing him my debt wake up every morning saying im just the best gold in my heart will i ever get rest breaking down no beating in my chest [Hook] Heart filled with these broken lies will i ever be the same can you let me know you have changed can you push me out into the rain can you let me know you are okay would you care if i said im insane would you help me relieve this pain would you help a young boy in the rain would you tell me you are okay [Verse 3] Nothing feels the same am i going insane let me k** myself and leave me in the rain and i dont know what to do say your bringing me this pain got this regret feel like im just the rest lay a couple pounds maybe 102 found myself digging without one clue do i deserve life whole face turned blue look around seems i got no crew i told myself im better but i broke anyway as im singing these lyrics im fading away in other words let me own body decay this mixtape is just a call for distress please help my case i need so much rest all of this music is causing so much stress take a gun point it at my head and leave me to rest