Ace Hashimoto - Letter to God (goldUn Child) lyrics

Dear God if you listenin', I know you are You're so far, I feel like I gotta yell to the stars All of my silent prayers don't seem like they gettin' answered Frustration grows, it's like it's cancer of the soul You told me give all my problems to you I can't carpool, but I got no problem followin' you Just gimme a sign, let me know I ain't miss my exit I prayed and you helped me not to miss my exes I prayed and you helped me not to f** up the next sh** She stayed and I thank you for that sh**, God knows Well, you know that I'd be lost without her It's bad enough the music ain't turn out to be what it was In my eyes, just two years ago, it seemed so sacred The deeper I get into this, the people get faker I hate it, I thank you for my fans for real Well, if not for them, I prolly woulda' k**ed myself So many nights I spent, cryin' in my lonesome Here with the same people years ago that k**ed your only son I'm livin' with them, but I'm livin' for you Makin' the most out of this mission I've been given to do Enlighten the work with my music And I think that I'm doin' it Messages from my listeners tellin' me to stay true to this Tellin' me I save they life But in retrospect, they be savin' mine Waitin' for my chance, I'mma stay in line This frustration, won't outweigh my patience I got [?], so I ain't mind waitin' For short, thank You for the sun and the rain I learn joy, I learn pain, but you always remain Even when I questioned your loyalty You would bring more to me Becoming a man, but keepin' in touch with the boy in me I know the future gon' be brighter than this About time I get this light bulb switch [?] Know the future gon' be brighter than this To get this light bulb switch Sincerely yours [Outro] Alright, the thought has crossed my mind, yeah. If something should happen, yeah I'll go along with it. But if it doesn't, it's no, no thing to me because that's not what I'm out here for. I'm out here to bomb, period. That's what I started for. I didn't - I didn't start writing to go to Paris. I didn't start writing to do canvases. I started writing to bomb... destroy all lines. And that's what I'm doing How long do you think you'll do it? Til I'm finished