Neck gouged bleeding profuse shifted neck from the noose pale is my dying face the search for d**h that I engage throat squirting red deep and looping grasping on the air flying to the walls and dripping neck luminated and pulsing soaked with a scarlet glaze twitching and squirting drops frip from the ceiling to my face the black I seek in d**hs name to relieve despair and my pain swallow and swallow s**ing down my blood to save my trachea from the suicidal flood desire of my black dream reaching out I cannot sieze knowing I want to die I want to be deceased trapped in this cold room getting closer to the dream through my mulched wounds body heat released in steam cold skin glistening warmed by showered blood red river flows from me my sea of shimmering blood