3 - X lyrics

I thought you was the best for me Feels like just yesterday you was standing next to me Pretending it don't hurt but pain flowing through my veins Tried some other women but it just ain't the same I wonder every night why you was playing games Should I live another day what I contemplate What the f** is love when love just succumbs to hate But sh** you met another n***a and I hope he makes you happy I hope he makes you fall in love just by saying sh** that's sappy Then I hope he breaks you down and leaves you feeling crappy I'm done picking you up when you're down and your heart feeling scrappy I want you thinking what the f** is happening? Tears rolling down your face but b**h I'm in a better place laughing Cuz every night I feel my heart cracking I'm still f**ing hurt that's why I'm rapping Devil testing me stressing me tryna get the best of me I just pray to God he takes action cuz me and the devil bout to make a f**ing transaction I gave you my heart and all you did was just abuse it I swear this sh** is so confusing You said don't put me through this All the sh** that you was scared of I told you I'd never do it Language of lies you speaking fluent Now I never give a b**h my trust cuz I know she'll just use it I gave you everything but you was drawing conclusions You got me f**ed up with this stupid sh** you be accusing Gave up on women and fell in love with drug doing Sometimes I just wanna die I'm tired of f**ing losing I could pop a pill or fill my head with lead til it's spewing It really don't matter either way I'll be snoozing You put on a good show that sh** was quite amusing But that's the last damn time a b**h will play me like I'm stupid Left me all alone finding myself through this music Like I'm stupid I said play me like I'm stupid Never play me like I'm stupid I really wanna snap feeling like I'm better off in an institution Getting harder every day to keep my head up when I'm feeling useless Pain in my chest problems you made your contribution I guess karma a b**h so I let it claim my retribution I want you to feel my pain and my confusion Let a n***a be the intrusion to your execution You got me feeling f**ing stupid Last n***a hurt her so she turning good n***as ruthless Play you? Nah I'd never do it Feeling this f**ing pain b**h you put me through it I said you put me through it This the type of sh** to make a sane n***a lose it Thought you loved me but damn I was wrong and you proved it But you taught me to ever leave my heart exposed cuz b**hes will bruise it You was my baby Now I'm going f**ing crazy So I'm opping xans til I'm lazy Smoking sh** that smelling hazy The old me that used to give a f** that n***as pushing daisies Pastor tries to inform me that God always there for me Tell me that the Devil crave me I'm yelling god f**ing save me This ain't me I ain't saying I'm a saint cuz that goody goody sh** it just ain't me I said it ain't me This depression f**ing changed me But I'm still thinking blankly I just want the money f** the fame can Can you blame me? Hearing voices daily Screaming they hate me I try to block em out but I still her the sh** faintly I'm f**ing crazy Even god f**ing hates me But I vow to never let another hoe play me And I'm already broke so let a b**h try to break me You n***as living large off that mainstream paper Never known what it's like to be your own damn hater I let her break me No one there to help they just worried bout them self it's I ain't ever had a father so I raised myself a single f**ing dollar to me was damn wealth just a friendly f**ing smile could make me feel better about myself family torn apart seen it all all alone by myself cuz we never faced our problems they just collected dust on the shelf