2x4 - Adversary lyrics

You're keeping secrets, how convenient Well my hearts gone numb There's no starting this up again Looking outside has never brought Such a heavy burden It weighs me down like the black soul That's rotten inside of me This dead weight's suffocating me This burning hate inside my brain Has never been let out It's fierce and dark with nothing to control it The devil sings to me while I lay silent Hoping for this hell to end at any moment It's like time is moving in slow motion It's fierce and dark but I'm learning to control it The devil sings but I refuse to hear it Knowing that this hell will end at any moment Frame by frame I have my eyes wide open My grave and all it's entirety Is everything I'll ever be A walking thief, I wouldn't trust me I'm everything you shouldn't be I blame myself, I was selfish and lost After everything you given me I was still too busy Blinding myself to the reality Living in the fantasy I couldn't stand to see you like that I'd hide it in the back of my mind Hoping I wouldn't find it I never buried it deep enough It would always surface It chews up my heart and spits it out Like it wasn't worth the flavor I'm sorry I wasn't there for you Like you were there for me I'm sorry I didn't care for you Like you would've cared for me