I don't drink to forget I drink so I can suffer twice as much 'cause in this world of pain Nothing breaks the memory of your touch What was I thinking I should have kept drinking To flood you face from my mind But now it's over and I'm sober enough To know you f**ed my mind Love can seem like slow d**h If it's not returned You will feel your body and soul Start to burn with desire And unrelenting pain The tears they cloud my eyes I bite my tongue till I taste my blood So you won't hear my cries Hiding in my private darkness I put you out of my mind My fear of d**h being overcome By my hatred for this life